Your not always meant to be with your first love, the one you learned from and gave your all to...maybe it's meant to end for a reward, for the knowledge of knowing what love really is...maybe the let down would make your heart stronger for that long journey ahead with the one your meant to be with. You can't stop the inevitable, you'll learn why it never worked out in the long run...because maybe he came along to teach you about "love" so you can remain firm and protect your heart...the heart you once thought would never ever love again...but it will. Eventually the wall you put up around your heart and the shell you hid your heart in fall apart giving you new faith for your next love...maybe the first love wasn't enough and after all maybe you did deserve much more and better...maybe the mistakes you constantly remind yourself of with the thought of him aren't mistakes, they are what taught you how to be who you are now, because if you never ever met that first love you would of never knew how it felt to really love...to really give you all... but most importantly to really love again.
Monday, July 19, 2010
a little something i wrote one night before i went to sleep........
----Maybe if you close your eyes and dream of everything you wish was real you can stop thinking about reality, the reality your state of mind cant take and only in dreams go away....but then you open your eyes the next day and wake up to face the dreams you had were fake, wishing they were real like every night as your pray. It's real as long as their there invading your dreams...so close your eyes again and wish to dream and feel alive again even if it's all in your head...the idea of escaping reality at night is all that really matters, your dreams are the only thing no one else can take...so close your eyes, meditate, wish to feel to feel what you feel when you dream, because maybe if you wish a little harder your reality would become your dream and all your worries would all be gone and then at night you wont need to close your eyes to escape whats real, you wont wanna miss a thing while your eyes are open, you wouldn't wanna close your eyes and that's the way it should be.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the only person who will ever receive all of you, after that, you learn better, but, most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved- a piece no future lover could ever get, no matter what. that piece holds innocence, the belief that love can last forever. it holds friendship and pain, trial and error, that one kiss you'll never forget, and that night under that stars you can never get back. it holds youth and everything you thought love would be, everything that was proven wrong.